Time Is Rough

What a Series of Events. Time is Rough

Just coming home from a weekend camping with my partner! Oh boy is it both a good time, and the worst time of my life. As someone with a very active mind, it can be hard to live with it in silence for more than a couple hours at a time, dealing with that for a whole day is utter torture! (He takes a class for one of the days, and I stay behind and do much of nothing, reading, photos, that stuff, but damn, no distractions of thought is hard.)
Though, I’ve been in a terrible mood as of late regardless of the ‘vacation’. Between being forced to change therapists due to the new rules preventing people with OHP(government insurance) from seeing out-of-network practicioners, or coping with the end of my twenties when I’ve spent all this time thinking, “Maybe this is the year I won’t wake up one day”.
It is however, quite nice to know I’m not alone in dealing with these type of things. After my recent diagnosis as being Autistic, I’ve been working quite hard on reframing my feelings of the past. While it hasn’t been easy, having a reason to keep trying to improve is helpful.

In other news, as predicted, I switched back to Nix. Go figure, once you get a taste of that juice, it’s hard to not want more! I have, however, taken a great step backwards, and I am down to three config files, and no home manager. I don’t know if it’s the trauma from the major DE shift of the 2010s or just my own neuroticism, but I just feel like going that deep into one system without the option of agnosticism is destructive. Meanwhile, wait till I tell you about my plans to transition my server computers over to NixOS and never go back 😉